This weekend a lot of people will be celebrating the new lunar year or the Chinese New Year. I could just remember when I was a kid, I used to look forward for this festive season. The kids were usually eager to spend the day on the eve while playing with other kids. The adults and the older kids will mingle around with lots of chatter and sometimes will gamble on peanuts or with red packet ang pow money.
Well, I have all grown up now and this year will mark my even older adult years in life. I have a mix feeling on my growth, accomplishment and personal life. There had always been good times and the other. But I can say I had done a lot in my time and gathered a lot of interesting experiences in that pursuit of whatever I was trying to do. I’m sure a lot of people will feel the same way. If not, then it’s just a work in progress. In some ways I feel the same way.
After a while in that crazy pursuit, you will start to feel like you are chasing a rabbit that’s running around, and then realized it wasn’t the same rabbit all the time. The rabbit changes as you make the chase. This happens when you reach different stages in life. So you will realize that the greatest reward is you becoming more experienced and older, if not smarter or wiser. Don’t get me wrong, you will succeed in different stages in life and the sense of accomplishment is very subjective depending in what circumstance you are in, but I think the most important thing is that you are happy.
For this coming CNY and waking up on the eve, I thought to myself that I was not entirely sure I will enjoy as much as I used to be when I was a kid, or even look forward to the events of this festive season. Perhaps that’s the feeling of growing up, being older, being a little bit more jaded and the child like emotions could be slowly fading away. But it doesn’t mean you can’t be youthful inside or being young in spirit. The hopes of enjoyment do go up as you embrace the festive season in your own pace and way.
Perhaps there were too many festive seasons in this short time. Living in my country brings lots of special occasions and public holidays. And perhaps I don’t really look forward to meet the family and relatives that often. As you grow up, you grow apart not only physically, but also the interests, the understanding and the wavelength. And sometimes that just won’t click. But that doesn’t mean you can’t start a new chapter, a clean slate and do your best moving forward. Just bury the past and embrace the future for a happier and better you.
But for some days, I do prefer to spend the days to dedicate to my art, a special someone and to myself. And if I could just do a picnic with all three. That will be the best way to celebrate this festive season. Perhaps I could do it another day. Any day will do. To calm the spirits is to find yourself with peace. And I wish for everyone and this world the same and with lots of happiness.